Rough week

I'm just really having a rough week. Of course, you know me, I'm trying to hide it, but I'm just feeling the weight of things this week. It figures, because last week I felt like I was on a mountain and feeling so blessed by what God has given us. But, I just need to blow some steam...

* So lately, Zach has been refusing to eat his solids. He's been a GOOD eater before, yogurt in the morning-now won't even eat breakfast and goes from a bottle at 6am til 10:30 without eating, about 4-6 cubes of food for lunch- just not interested at all, and for dinner, he was usually eating 8 cubes of food. The past several nights, he's just flat out refused to even eat any dinner. Tonight, he did eat a good portion of it, but it was SUCH a struggle. I'm tired of throwing away his food too.

* Which brings me to my second part. Because of this, his poo's aren't solid lately, and he's leaking, BAD. Well, actually, it's not just pooey diapers either, he just keeps wetting through diapers. We haven't used cloth diapers in about a month and just started back this week, due to the ever persistent yeast rash (which I think is back!!! :*( That makes me want to cry all alone) But every morning since we started back, I've had to change his sheets, and once after a nap as well. In fact, one night, I changed him at 4am because he had soaked through his clothes, and then when I got him up at 8am, he had pooped so much, it was leaking through his clothes and poop all over the sheets. I've never had so many problems with CDs and I wasn't having this problem with disposables. I really hate to go back to disposables because they're so expensive! I want to use my CDs :*(

*So, with that, and the rash back, I MUST call and make an appointment for him to see the doctor. We fought the yeast rash for 3.5 weeks I think, and it was finally gone, so we went back to cloth, and he has a rash again. I don't know if it's still the yeast that was hiding, or if it's just a BAD diaper rash that isn't getting better. ::sigh::

*Jon's been working 12 hour night shifts all week... meaning we see each other from 2-4pm. Meaning, I'm alone with Zach... and Zach, well, he's everywhere. 3-4 steps UP the baby gate to climb over so he can fall down the stairs. I'm trying to teach him to crawl up and down them. He's got the up, but down, he just wants to bite the stairs on the carpet. He's in to everything- cabinets, open boxes, baggies, chemicals, etc. We're trying to baby proof, but it's taking time. Plus, the diaper problems. Plus, the eating problems. Plus, he's been really whiney today. Plus...

*I had/have 3 appointments this week and Bible study yesterday morning. So, his morning schedule has been shot.... Plus, the 2 hours in the afternoon Jon's been up, we've had to spend at the apartment cleaning and repainting it white, so Zach's afternoon's haven't been normal either. (thank God we finished all that today!) So, he's grumpy. I'm not seeing my husband and I'm doing it all alone, so I'm grumpy. Zach's also waking up in the middle of the night STILL. So, I'm having to wake up at 3am, sometimes more, to feed him. I'm tired. I'm exhausted. The house still isn't unpacked. I keep having hopes.

*Oh! And our dishwasher isn't cleaning. Our landlord is coming out tomorrow to look at it for us, but on top of everything else, I've gotten the extra job of handwashing dishes... now, keep in mind how active Zach is, so... it can only be done when he's napping (Which, we haven't been home for his naps) or when he's in bed for the night.

*and on top of that, for two days, I wasn't feeling Hannah kick, so was a little worried. I did feel her kick today, but I also had cramping or maybe semi- braxton hicks contractions. Idk, but it didn't feel good. Good thing I have an OB appointment on my list for tomorrow.

WAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Is it Friday yet?!?! If you read all of this, thanks.